duminică, 7 februarie 2010

How to fail as parents, from a child's perspective

First of all, I'll start by saying I'm currently looking for a job and an apartment to rent. If anybody needs a good programmer to do any programming, lemme know, or if you have an apartment you want to rent (I will get enough money for it, don't worry, leave comment for details).

A few people who "know" me say I'm a spoiled brat because I want more from my parents... Sure, I got almost everything I wanted materially, but is that really all a child needs? If your answer is "yes", then fuck off and stop reading this post.

What if that child gets everything he or she needs, but in addition to that, is continuously emotionally abused by these people called "parents"?

I still remember one day when I was 7 or so, and my dad kept yelling at me that I should never lie to him... I was sobbing and telling him I never lied, but he kept on yelling. Why? Well, he had a crappy job, managed to ruin his life due to a series of bad decision, and ofc was taking it out on me and my mom... And that's been going on for 21 years now.

And as for my mom? She always tries to guilt me into doing things... never yelling, just starting to cry whenever I tell her something contradicting her.

One thing I'm thankful when it comes to my parents, is that they've been great examples on how I shouldn't be in life.

And I'm tired of this... I'm better then this. I'm a programmer. I want to be able to sit in front of a computer and do what I like doing the most without being interrupted every 5 seconds by these people yelling at me for no apparent reasons.

I know it'll be hard, but I'm more motivated then ever to go through with this. If I managed to get this far and learn so much with my annoying parents on my back, I know I'll be able to do much better once I'm out of here.

And to my "loving" parents, I only have this to say:
FUCK YOU, I WON'T DO WHAT YOU TELL ME!